these people..

went out with dearest buddies, faiek, tess and nizam. its kinda like tess's mini birthday celebration. i guess?

oh well, above all, we had fun! and i watched THE GREEN HORNET for the second time! and i don't mind watching it for the third time because the movie is damn good! MUAHAHAHA!

thanks nizam for belanja-ing meatballs for everyone!

thanks tess for the baskin robbins!

love u all!

oyasumi~nasai!

an irritating post about irritating feelings

how do we get rid of annoyance and irritation?

how to not get it over our head?

some people has different ways of relieving this bloody hell of a feeling. but what are the odds of those methods does not work in certain circumstances? how do we get it out of our head? and what's worse, if this feeling has to do with a certain someone and we have to face them sooner than we expected? and if we did meet that annoying someone, of course we don't have the mood to face them and thus we have this unpleasant expression and aura surrounding us, and IF that someone points out straight to our face that "please don't be too obvious when we're pissed off or irritated", this question comes to my mind:

whatever happens to human rights?

a heavy question for a not so small matter but it applies to the situation. why do someone has to throw such a statement right to our faces when its actually our very own human rights to do whatever we want with our facial expression and personal feelings.

what if someone said the above statement to you, how would you feel? more annoyed and irritated that ever! i mean, you are already in a foul mood to begin with, and someone has to add more spice to it when what you need is some sugar.

viewing this from the human rights point of view, it is that someone's own rights to say whatever they want to, but we didn't mention to them that we are annoyed with them SIMPLY BECAUSE we don't want to hurt the other party. So, why hurt our feelings instead? is this a new level of selfishness or egoism? or maybe they just didn't notice what they've done.

some species of humans view this topic as a really small matter. a topic that we shouldn't think too much about. but what if someone has been battling with this irritation for life? shouldn't they have an outlet for it? this situation occurs mostly to those who pays great attention to details and always avoid hurting others. so, another question comes to mind:

is it worth the pain and annoyance just to please others?

this one question has been plaguing my head for years and i still haven't found the answer. but what i do know is that, when we're always about pleasing others, we'll get tired of it eventually. and yes, i am tired of this facade, but whenever i tried to be straightforward, it just couldn't happen. its as if chivalry is engraved in me since birth. its as if pleasing others is what i'm suppose to do in life. but is that really what its all about? what do a person who couldn't break out of their mask do in order not to suffocate themselves? more questions comes to mind but none of it has an answer.

life is all about questioning, but can we ever live a life without questions even for one day? or a question-less life takes away the thrill of living?

my head is throbbing,

and the pillow is calling me,

goodnight.