here's the list of people who wished me BIRTHDAY!
1. Ezrin
2. Faiek
3. Ajim
4. Ct
5. Diera
6. Biela
7. Leeka
8. Machi
9. Alya
10. Tessa
11. Nizam
12. Niena
13. Mama and Papa
14. Ezmin (Munchkin)
15. Hazwani
16. Iman
17. Sheera
18. Wan
1. Ezrin
2. Faiek
3. Ajim
4. Ct
5. Diera
6. Biela
7. Leeka
8. Machi
9. Alya
10. Tessa
11. Nizam
12. Niena
13. Mama and Papa
14. Ezmin (Munchkin)
15. Hazwani
16. Iman
17. Sheera
18. Wan
surprisingly, nizam didn't forget my birthday.. but, in the end, dayah didn't wished me like she always did. for 2 years, she's been the first to wished me.. and i'm not gonna forgive her easily.. it's her panda's birthday! i'm seriously disappointed!
honestly, today doesn't feel like our birthday.. just like 2 years ago.. i woke up at 2 pm.. and continue to lay on the bed until 4 pm, reading and listening to songs.. then i slept again from 5.30 'till 6 with my cat~ then bathe, berbuka and i made my own cake. yup.. no one bought us a birthday cake..
my birthday cake consist of 3 scoops of vanilla ice cream, topped with nuttela chocolate paste with a stick of white chocolate and a small candle on top.. blew the candle and i ate it alone..
every year of my birthday, i always secretly hope that some one would surprise me with something.. i always surprises my family members when it's their birthday, but sadly, no one around me seems to share the same thought as i did.. that's what happens when everyone around you only thinks of practicality.. i always thought that when mama came home from work, she'll suprise me with something.. when that didn't happen, i shifted to papa. when that didn't happen as well, i said to myself "oh, this year is the same as the others then.." then, on the next year's birthday, the same thought will arise, and it will end the same way..
i wonder when will i get to celebrate my birthday without pretending to be happy when somebody wishes me and feel truly happy without having the feeling to cry on my own birthday..
it's been a long time since i have that kind of birthday..
oh well, at least he wished me..
honestly, today doesn't feel like our birthday.. just like 2 years ago.. i woke up at 2 pm.. and continue to lay on the bed until 4 pm, reading and listening to songs.. then i slept again from 5.30 'till 6 with my cat~ then bathe, berbuka and i made my own cake. yup.. no one bought us a birthday cake..
my birthday cake consist of 3 scoops of vanilla ice cream, topped with nuttela chocolate paste with a stick of white chocolate and a small candle on top.. blew the candle and i ate it alone..
every year of my birthday, i always secretly hope that some one would surprise me with something.. i always surprises my family members when it's their birthday, but sadly, no one around me seems to share the same thought as i did.. that's what happens when everyone around you only thinks of practicality.. i always thought that when mama came home from work, she'll suprise me with something.. when that didn't happen, i shifted to papa. when that didn't happen as well, i said to myself "oh, this year is the same as the others then.." then, on the next year's birthday, the same thought will arise, and it will end the same way..
i wonder when will i get to celebrate my birthday without pretending to be happy when somebody wishes me and feel truly happy without having the feeling to cry on my own birthday..
it's been a long time since i have that kind of birthday..
oh well, at least he wished me..
hye dear. Happy belated burfday.
ReplyDeleteDont feel sad about no one do a suprise for u (i know how u felt coz, once i been in the situation). be positive dear.. not having a party or any suprise doesnt mean they not luv u.. they luv so much. at least u still lucky to have them compared those orphan without family to wish them. so..chill up dear.
mayb 'something' unexpected is standing...waiting for u in front. who know! God bless u..and be happy always!
regards,
-ur silent reader-
hei , hepi bday ^^
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